You're Not Alone...

You know the poem 'Footprints in the Sand'? I've been thinking a ton about that lately! Ive been feeling really alone and scared(a little) and that's the one of the only things I can really think about that has helped me to relax! Everytime I'm afraid I know that the Lord is with me and is carrying me every step of the way until I can stand on my own two feet again. And that's one of the hardest things to do, getting back up on two feet. There are days when I wish that I'm back in kindergarten wanting to never grow up without a care in the world. But since that can't happen I know I have to keep growing up and lemme just say that 19 is just weird. Paying bills, living across the country, trying to find myself while not being able to date because the guys out here aren't members of the church so I can't really "find love" while working. So as a newly single woman... I am very bored and I'm starting to believe that I will never "find love" well atleast for the next 3 years I won't. That's right I said three. I've been asked/invited to stay out here working for 3 years until Chloe is 5 she's turning 3 in Selye ever so we'll see. I really want to live out here with my family(in the future I mean). It would be the best thing ever!!! I LOVE the people out here they are really truly amazing!! :) well that's all I have to say for now!!! OH!! Today I picked Chloe up from nursery and her teacher said that she volunteered to say the prayer and she said it for the first time in nursery and Ian told me that HE also said the prayer tor the first time in HIS class as well!!!! I was SUPER proud of them both!! Well now THIS is all I have to say! Loves! Xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox <3 me